"Seeing" things a little differently
(This is the first part of a series of posts that I will be writing about living a life with monocular vision. My goal is to inform people of the difficulties that people with poor vision have to overcome. So many minute little things during the course of each day that most would never think about…..)
Definition of Monocular – involving, or affecting a single eye : suitable for use with only one eye
My friends and family members have a tendency to forget I have poor eyesight. I guess that means I can “cover it up or fake it, fairly well. It’s a lifestyle for me, I’ve learned to work with it, around it and sometimes just plain ignore it. Every minute of every day I deal with situations concerning my eyesight.
Obviously, after reading the title to this post, you may guess that I can only see out of one eye. In my good eye, I am moderately nearsighted and I have floaters drifting around in my vision when I focus in on anything.
So as I go through each day…..from attempting to put my eyeliner on straight to reading the small print on a computer and trying to decypher distances with everything I see or grab is difficult. Stairways and steps are difficult because I can’t judge how high or low it may be and every time I reach to grab something from you, I may miss it entirely….you see, monocular vision does not see in 3-D at all. Judging distances can be quite entertaining at times. Although I can’t see in 3-D, how do I paint landscapes on canvas halfway decently?
( below is a sample of my paintings )
I don’t blame anyone for “forgetting” about my little disadvantage, (I certainly don’t want to be pitied), but sometimes I hate explaining to someone who really ” knows ” me that I can’t see this or read that or why I really shouldn’t be driving in unfamiliar places at night.
When I drive through a fast food chain, I can’t see the menu….so I need to know up front what I want to order. I can’t see house numbers on the mailboxes when I am looking for an address and I have difficulty reading street names on signs so I usually pass them up and have to turn around. These are just a few examples.
I constantly deal with some level of humility on a daily basis. Anyone who lives with a disability understands what I mean and the feelings that go along with it. Please don’t misunderstand me, I am so grateful for what I do have. I know things could be so much worse.
On a positive note, I blend in with average people more now than I used too. Before my surgery, my eye looked disfigured and it was immediately noticed by everyone I came in contact with, creating comments and stares constantly. I dealt with it for fifty years in my own naive way.
Now, post surgery…..my eyes are beautiful and I have the wonderful opportunity to live and be myself without wondering what others are thinking about my physical appearance. In fact, I am trying to get used to others giving me compliments on how great I look or how young I look, etc. (I also dropped thirty pounds). I’m definitely not used to the compliments and I’m still trying to learn how to react to them….but it sure does feel good!
So this is my world, I do what I can with what I have been given and I wouldn’t trade places with anyone!!!!!
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